Focusing on the Now

I’ve always wanted to write a book. Actually, I came really close to finishing one while I was in high school. It was my senior year and my english tutor decided to push me to see how much I could write. I spent two weeks deciding what I wanted to write about, then jumped in headfirst. My goal was to write at least one chapter a week and I stuck to it easily and often wrote more. 

The book was about the elusive serial killer, Earle Nelson. Historical fiction has always been “my thing”. Not much is known about Earle Nelson so the fiction part was easy. I popped out the chapters one after the other and watched my paper turn into a story then into a book. But as with most things, life became busy, I graduated high school, and my book was put on the back burner. I stopped at 111 pages and 30,505 words. 

Writing a book was my goal, becoming a book editor is still a dream of mine, but right now there are more important things in front of me. I took a break from college to have a baby, then decided to have another. We will probably have a few more kids (the goal is at least six, yes we are lunatics), and wait some more years before college can become a reality again. And that’s ok. Putting something on hold does not make me a failure.

I still love to write though, and practice in different ways. Note taking during church and Bible studies helps me remember what I’ve heard and I love writing the key phrases or verses that stick out to me. I write letters to my babies and my husband that will be given at a later time. And even now, writing this blog entry is enjoyable for me. One of these days I will finish my book or maybe a different one. And I may just go back to college at some point. 

Right now I will focus on what I have in front of me: a sweet, Godly husband. A talkative, precious toddler. An adorable, giggly baby. Those are what matter most. And I am so grateful for the blessing of all of them. I don’t know what I would do without my little family. You see, because they were all also a dream of mine. One that came true and now my goal is to be the best wife or mama to them. That is what I am focusing on right at this moment.

What is a dream of yours that you have put on hold? What are you, instead, focusing on right now?